Sometimes I feel a lot like Gideon. (No offense to you, Gideon!)  If you remember his story (Judges 6-8), he was raised up out of obscurity and personal weakness to lead the Lord’s Army, small as it was, against the Midianites to throw their yoke of oppression off of his fellow Israelites.  But before he became a successful judge/general, Gideon struggled to believe: 1) that God had actually called him to rescue his people (6:15-22), 2) that God would actually use him to rescue his people (6:36-40) and 3) that God had fully equipped him to rescue his people (7:7-15).  The common denominator here is that Gideon’s view of God was deficient.  It just wasn’t big enough, and with a deficient view of God, he was unable to accommodate the prospect of being Israel’s deliverer.  Boy can I relate!  I find that a deficient view of God’s bigness to be a huge obstacle in believing that God can use me to plant a gospel-centered church in the heart of a religious city like Springfield.  How do I overcome the belief/practice that one’s goodness (and not the gospel) is sufficient to save them?  I wonder if there were to be a Wikipedia entry written about me, how much of it would be devoted to chronicling the numerous doubts and questions I have had throughout the years?  And yet, even though most of what is written about Gideon in Judges 6-8 is about God’s answering Gideon’s questions and overcoming his doubts, he still chooses (and delights) to use him.  I rest in the fact that God does not get wearied by my questions/doubts and that he gives grace to help me wrestle through them.